08 October 2017

Beast of Burden

"Great deeds, great songs." ~ Klingon proverb
(1/3) Object

It has this air of time, this replication of what my readers are, on this day of days, tired of exaggerated extents and the beleaguered buoyancy to partial efforts in half measures, when not writing anything proves more worth. This further assists believers, further detracts dissenters, and proves in and of itself that anything can be written and no point be made. Thus, my goal is to stem the world from being swept away in sensation, but more than ever, prove that an essay about nihilism is equally pointless. It's an entirely absurd definition to face compulsion to write without hunger and then share describe it as such to those who have a hunger to write, so let the irony return.

In your electronic years, like garden plants whose seeds ruin their ability to fruit or whose flowers ruin their ability to extend roots, altho those things are true to the final form, having an evolving perception of something true as pure sunlight and making it responsible for actions unjustifiable to ourselves, often enuf.

(2/3) Verb
An internalization soon explodes on the world, without learning the social construct, without imagining the oppression of hive singularity, and avoiding the vast chasm of ignorance provided by defining the universe without going there. There is room to disagree with this, this isn't an irreversible pattern or outside force, it is not an irreversible mechanism. Perhaps it is and shouldn't be, perhaps it isn't and should.

The words confined to our human ideas, the ideas confined to words that aren't needed yet, in the minds of you and others, as are you and others in these simple words, part of a structure no more than grammar no less than sounds. The truth as a function of itself, or in reverse, echoes across reality, whether the depths of space already too large to imagine and forever impossible to complete, for there is no energy for that, so we form ideas of words and words of ideas and begin recording them all.

Wonders to be seen from the upper atmosphere, binary indicators 1 and 0 not only too small to see but indecipherable in magnetic form, and across the pages of books of oldest kings with the largest empires. Nothing new, nothing old, and nothing corrupt. Just the truth as we see it, no matter how many lies. The bird who flies toward the sun still sleeps in every night.

(3/3) Subject
These things in a fictional existence brought into being beyond the physical barrier, where you not to see them for yourself, incredible visions told to people in a moment, in person, on the network, remind me of what should be closer. The burden of proof not a requirement for fiction, but some illusion cannot be dissolved, the objective truth in the perspective lie, a shadow of its former self. It is the type of word that indicates its roots which eludes memory, but means to have only been written down because it is fact. As the point of all this escapes me.

The emperor writes a book and generals praise it's value in the present and bookworms value it in the past, just as a roof is praised then needs repairing. Like the need for books is passed from teacher to student of reading, there can only be time to import the essential nature. A dictionary does this, a liar does not. This entry has become more about memory and desire, and the luxury has been lost, if there is something of it worth repeating so shall it be done, and in the darkness a dawn, and in the heroes a song, so that the truest of words may be spoken, and the rantings of imbeciles be viewed as nature and not a poem.

"Only a Sith deals in absolutes" ~ Obi Wan Kenobi 


04 October 2017

Random Et Al

There are 43 muscles in a human face.

The possible facial expressions in combination is 43(!), also known as 43 factorial, meaning there are 60415263063373835637355132068513997507264512000000000 possible combinations.

Another way to look at that is, 6.0415263e+52, which is also just over 6 Sexdecillion, or in newspeak, six times sixteen-illion.

There are 6, 16-illion, ways for you to start a sentence.

It sorta makes you feel bad for people who never say anything new.

Then multiply that by itself everytime there's a word in the sentence and the number quickly exceeds more than there are stars in the sky.

Fate changes paradoxically, so multiply the number by infinity and divide by zero until everything echoes as reflections thruout the universe. 

We could describe every point in existence to increase the chance of discovering something that works, instead of agreeing on how to repeat, or repeating how to agree, on what's broken.

"As far as the laws of mathematics refer to reality, they are not certain, and as far as they are certain, they do not refer to reality." ~ Albert Einstein

02 October 2017

Geni Vas Laco

At the sunset the horizon fills the sky, for the tides of thought are the breaking waves together and many, I dance in the center of light and feel pulled in all directions from the truth of all wisdom toward the hearts of infinite desires.

Our hopes are the tide of wit and joy tearing apart mountains of aged certainty and despots of our time, unable to bridge the lights of the dimensions with gateways of minds or echoes of truths, as are gone from the timeline of infinite loss, unable to remember what has been taken because it is not a memory of action, but yet a charge against our willpower mercy and tireless fight amongst the warmth of others.

It isn't known if this the vanishing truth is the only one, or the fading darkness is the custom or the cost, without knowing if circumstances are predictable in the shadow of itself or the causality of usual things, trusting with the fear of a young soul that it had not happened in waking dreams.

Riots of rebellion in questioning existence or garnering favor all in the existential questions, demanding more from the fountain of youth and staring at the stars, to where it is now another reflection, from this side of the dark mirror, of the living infinite, and the terrible question.

The negative space unbearably wasted, the impenetrable unknown that wanes with the loss of so many, that waxes with the ignorance that comes with incapable excuses at this egregious moment, in the world of the living, where now they bow to matters that must not take any reality for granted, to honor those that traveled on the surface of time and lived with infinite balance.

"Too much sanity may be madness and the maddest of all, to see life as it is and not as it should be."
~ Miguel de Cervantes

22 September 2017

Hayseed Rant

“Magic's just science that we don't understand yet.” ~ Arthur C. Clarke

Let me start this curtly. Hello, but I am surprised to live here, Earth, which means dirt, among a rare distinction afforded to a species who didn't solve their health insurance question first, instead what I assume is last, inadequatly, and then a repetitively wrong but never unsure cycle of idiocy.

I don't like the mandate part of your solution, even if it was your first solution it should be the last time you impose it. Should you be so inclined to wonder why, it's against the law of the king and myself. I bet many dollars and donuts those aversive and bias are unbeknownst. That is a crime of protection and racketeering. At the moment of this writing, a "racket" is a fixed outcome extortion scheme or race, an ill-gotten decree forces you to start the race, and a terrible idea forces you to pay to leave it. A mandate to buy it, a penalty to escape it. This I've written many times.

When escalating this crime's status to a federal infraction, the crime also bear a communal punishment, out of sheer necessity, much more than any educational value, removal of this crime is of apex importance, because the renaming of slavery is not an acceptable solution. My views are similar of taxes, but I can never get anyone to listen to the notion of replacing classical republicanism with liberal democracy. NOT the people calling themselves republican, NOT the people calling themselves democrats, NOT the people calling themselves socialists and then being antisocial. He who would demand to be king is psychotic.

Oh, that reminds me, whatever your views about the election are, 180 million people didn't vote for your candidate. In other words, whomever you thought should've won, at least three times as many people, can and will, care less.  Someone want to tell the truth, some just want others to be wrong. 

Neways, .... the crime of institutionalizing racketeering and extortion, when not repealed, becomes treason. Of which I must urge the king excommunicate my ceremonious and dedicated betrayers. This is the western promise, albeit a healthy dose of democracy, for more than even my cousins in Europe, the world shares a need to be rid of corruption. I might even steal your minds to make a small suggestion, that a state official with a brain tumor not be allowed to hold office. It's 2017, despite of few heathens protesting what they don't know they've become and their inbred media support group not understanding economics, inasmuch a communist country understands them better than you, inasmuch their worst criminals are smarter than our best politicians, by way enforcement of the oldest of laws.

Halfway point, blink your eyes....

I mention the tumor because of a cretin politician at the time of this writing who already had - decades - to solve the existing problem, irreversibly identical, a government program, for the military persons required to enroll, and as problems mounted, fixed nothing, and I assume that with them armed he supported that program's reformation. This speaks volumes to the necessity of checks and balances, and even if it hasn't taken his eyesight, he's a useless oxygen thief. My prayers to those who have to be near him.

There are the manied who think the 'republicans' are evil, of which during those years, my enemy was pretending to be one even then, all while censoring music, banning substance, redefining morality en masse carte blanc. Then in 2012 there was a wave to replace faux republicans, of which the faux democrats did to themselves in many cases simultaneously. Notice that the shilling media is in full coverage of their enemies, not to defile their enemy, but to make the public bored of justice, the integrity gone, like this essay, gaudy, breathless, in effort to control the narrative, but as far from reality as possible. No education, no solution, an altruistic goal doesn't need to be in peril and demands that chaos be the narrative, instead of a time of enlightenment, of a time of revealing the truth.

Being fascist to stay in office to protect your legacy, becomes that and nothing else. If you're not forgotten to Wikipedia forever, filed on the page of examples for bureaucracy. Most I've met barely remember their own lives and replace them with blurry hopefulness. (I assume a rightly-crafted boycott would cripple your oppressors, as is always the case, but a deathless sensibility is required for such a tumult.)

I'd just told myself that language is a struggle for me, I go on my aspie ways to do aspie things like ignore getting to the point, or have a daydream of pure conjecture not even being myself, then it possessed me and I mentioned it to someone so solve my language confusion when they said 'occur', something "didn't occur to [them]" and I thought at first that it meant, to realize, and realized it means to happen, which is what it means, so I'll say it clearly to be concise.

You can take the win, end the atrocity against our civil liberties, and if there's something incomplete, complete it. The right thing isn't going to occur, it has to be realized.  If not, history will repeat itself as it always does.

"Omne ignotum pro magnifico est" ~ Tacitus, from Agricola

13 September 2017

Novis Initiis

i close my eyes to see the back of stars, the stars i see everywhere, arguing, not that it's new light, and behind the stars i see the distance, i peeked to see if i can spellbind, that these are my thoughts, no one is sure, to me there they are intrinsic, and temperamental, often not my own, never full to grow out like flowers and fires, but there is the other thing that i'm stalling again, oh great is might, i sense where the keys are and i type, or i do, stranger than fiction, and other things, continuity is so remains the principle theme, has the light finished before it shines on travelled shores, does the light travel to empty planets or does it just pass by them with ease, as choice, as reprimand, as trivial detrour, does it chase around the world after a tail, it becomes many past connection withy the target, but itself to parts, we can record these events, creating new data as more information, and there is the light used to transmit the signals are just pulses of electricity, on, and off, we record, no wait, there are two choices this thought, behind the flashlight, or guessingh who holds the flashlight, it because it seems, okay, scores of people recorded like charted scores on shores of waves of tidal infinite information, just like the water, arguing that water is only made of elements, and thereby as such is earth, but slightly lesser unknown still that it is air and earth, fuel for the living to become channelers of the source, conduits, as exception already, even by the time of this writing it is possible, in a working grid of control, a controlled-environment, one of the missing eye, as often enuf, to know every movement, mapping easily enuf by our toys, if we are here, or if even we are there, surely we are anywhere for a time, this is our singularity channeling the controlled light within us, for i'm uncertain to argue, if enuf than too much, iff uncertain than vigilant, and that so many times without irregularity is its way to know all thse orders and operations of our lives, the stories of gods that play with expected outcomes, and people do this too, and of those that weave time to change where we go, but it is a challenge to be a human for many years after our creation, or until after our creation, my parable seems ponderous, rewriting, it suggests that there is no identity, like voices in his head, there must be more, it must be any, ah yes, the whole report of which we are books in a database cell, but what if it recorded how many breathes a person takes, ho9w many heartbeats, i peeked to make sure it's on the level, on the line, correction is not a thing we can make to history, liek continuous development we mustn't deride ourselves our closest allies, other error checkers, will report to that, beneficially, as much a perfect calculation in sentient space driven by completing authentication at the point of finding itself and its beginning, largely assuming that, like a program checking itself until it outputs all that can be, reathing living cell, i love that universes exist within atoms, and just are the truth of this science, but what if i were to say that it would count how many times a heart skipped, just a larger database, in this infiinite amt of space would not there be without explanation that beyond the grasp of creatures standing under the digital sky endless unfoldable space to hide the writing on the walls, i used to write these with my eyes open, inasmuch, otherwise, et al, i peek to see if i'm blind, where it counts many things, how many cells in the body, how many bodies within cells, equally, how many celsl does the body create every second, would it also count and document the manufacture distribution and collapse of every cell in the human body, that would surely be a great artificial intelligence, knowing where are all these things withing the known universe, a beautiful picture of the mathematicians'golden rule of the unknoweable space and time, if the future is unknowable or by heading there is lost the past, naming every cell in the human body, and knowing where every cell is at all time, knowing where every grain of sand is, like a a map maker of stars, those beyond the scope of time to see them, those which we around revolve, now ready to imagine everycell accounted in every possible moment aside from their order of existence, how and how close each is to the other, knowing how far a star light will appear as a supernova by its lenght away from the view, and the worlds undiscovered within a cell, mitochondrial universes like floating stars, tiny cells, or the complex combustian and renewal within the feiry brightness floating in space, and in the absence of matter the radiation  chaotic and three four dimensional conduit to the fabric of reality itself, like a pattern in the wave tops of an ocean in a frozen photograph, stacked for a motion slideshow of embryonic echoes across the tiemline, in that irradiated space where stars exlode and new shores define them the corners of the universe where we reside, counting the times against each other that someone did not count them for us, when all we have to do is remember thise things again, where everything is


30 August 2017

Coarse and Closed

I am here and I wonder, 'how do I start an entry,' into this bottomless callous cavalcade of emotionless thoughts, differential substitution of introduction, what jalopy melancholy as it might seem, to every stylometry internet filter fastidiously and more so impertinently latched to deep sea cables at the order of the luddite mentats, fingerprinting where every cell phone, every metastasized metadata-driven click where keywords mill thru databases like worms, what my language pattern is, discreetly mine own, distinctly within the confines of randomization without ubiquity, to match these screeds to some other charlatan of epic proportions in every privacy shared compared against every whereabouts detailed, which in a sentence I cannot fray, but in a phrase I beg to say, where evolution is the river none dare to swim, this is opportunity to begin an eternity of information.

Me, I have a tea, a rooibos from one of the rose deserts, the tasting of colors red and black, the small threads put into a coffee filter and twisted, pinched with a clothespin and mounted perfectly within the brim. I was able to buy it because of capitalism, I was able to enjoy it because of communism, albeit ironically opportunely alone, and I am able to share the experience with you because of socialism. Ire brings me out, the way you insult my planet and harm these humans, the voices rage me with this again, these benefits of profit, these concerns of controlling, the compulsion of sharing the hybrid, to wit I make this of grammar, not of economics, not of equivalent exchange, not of emotions, because you seem to have no time for that.

The world is not a simulation for now. Perhaps it will be, perhaps it won't be, and that is also something else for somewhere else. If you wish, time could be frozen for everyone except you, or maybe you're the last person on the planet, odd, in any case you're reading this and I have something urgent to tell you. Let us say that your x-ism, mentioned above, serves a purpose, is embraced by society, can you say that it is not, it would mean that if socialism failed it was because you're too stupid to use it.

The manied results include, the idealist creation is not of commonality and origin within the voice of the people, by failure to recognize vastly complex yet brutishly heavy stoppages to its systematic mindless enforcement penalized yourself, and to no surprise, in ignorance punished all of those around you. It is by this very ignorance of your own recognizance, your personal reawakening into pointlessness that you damaged yourself without internal or external reflection, like pushing the wrong way on a door that isn't even a door.

There are the great things, love among them, sleep certainly has its importance, this tired yarn begs mention vitality, by which we damnedest, eat and breath, there is no law to command we love, we sleep, we consume and breathe, and in mention my sake of waxing poetic brings me to the level lower without substantiation, beautiful frontliners, you can't make it rain unless you're a cloud in the heavens. I am sacrosanct, supercilious and deleterious, but we do not censor, even in the desert we are not grains of sand, falling thru the hands of time or sliding in the hourglass, powerless to become mountains once again, we tell others the time, we carry oceans and rest like a gathering of galaxies, or in the fires we bond together to become the glass.

The tea stains the water, then the water is tea. 


19 August 2017

Contractus Socialis

"Every man has a property in his own person. This nobody has a right to, but himself."
~ John Locke
The 'news' says there was a free speech rally today in Boston, Massachusetts, it also is informing that there is a counter-free-speech protest assembled and about to confront them. One outside and singing liberty, one outside and howling mad. We shouldn't have so many emotions that we escape enlightenment. 

Protesting is yet another form of free speech. To protest free speech is, without a doubt, the dumbest thing I've ever heard in the entirety of my existence, from the bottom of my heart. The second dumbest thing I've ever heard is from the same report, which says the ironically so-called anti-free-speech protesters are objecting to a controversial rally. I can't for the life of me believe that free speech is controversial, perhaps the content of words, but not free speech, an affectation of higher lifeforms. One, such as a human, could argue that this higher thought process afforded to, arguably, most of the human race, is an anomaly or aberrant evolutionary fluke that promulgates distinct loquaciousness, in that human speech and thought is an accident in any case, but I wager that anyone objecting to free speech isn't actually having thoughts or speaking from a lucid state. 

This dream-filled illusion I call my home, you will come to know by hook or by crook, is not the self-absorbed and self-important medieval war zone of the old world your cousin-fucking ancestors slowly departed when they heard of the great west, because this is the home of something entirely new. You were born into this land where everyone who gets a trophy in a competition meant for one grew to become the spoiled multitiered aristocrats imagining everyone doing what everyone says like an absurd parliament of baby birds barking at the rising sun, but that light has set on a safely forgotten world. 

Free speech is genetic, not political. The advocates the freedom of speech defend your very right to speak against them, if your minds have not melted under the heat of your own insanity consider this, they defend the right to speak against their own failures, and in by noticing what is wrong bring themselves closer to what is right. The spiritual many cry between the moons for those of you who don't understand this. 
It is an idea very old, before history, and before learning, where dawn shows mist nurturing the plants of the world, and where the living sleep and then wake to begin their daily cycle. There are those who open their eyes and pain without others to wake with them for playing in the beginning of this new time, whose sight sees the world in front of themselves, and never what is behind them, and so is good to have others share the knowledge of glory. 

If you do not defend them, who will defend you....? 

13 August 2017


A dream during sleep is only a moment, but decompresses until you wake up and installs until you sleep again.

The fantasy created by the endless potential of the mind, in a moment shorter than any other moment, a reflection of the infinite, a remnant of the collapse of existence into a single moment exploding when colliding with another dimension.

The capacity for eternal salvation reduced to its own ash dispersed infinitesimally across the endless void, rare and profound only incomplete and destroyed, taken in large breath of the human imagination unable to consume the iota of the big bang, and taken into the primal psyche.

Unfathomable power confined in unexplored dimensions unconceivable by the awakened and unattainable by the living, is trapped by those that dream as a confusing source of immortality.

The gateway of the mind, holding onto the knowledge of this entity and where the dreamer exists, must take that from the ethereal plain into the fledgeling nightmarish landscape of our memory while in the dream state.

For that is a task best perceived with time going backwards and reality abandoned, confronting ourselves at the gates of the many worlds of life across the omniverse, without distraction of known things nor loss of inimicable knowledge.

A dreamlike seed, which holds comparative knowledge of complex code to simply germinate, whose form changes countless times, when single task takes its true form, what reincarnation simply aspires found in total reincarnation.

From the realm of the unknown, into the domain of the undiscovered, until the new reality consumes all controls of sanity in recreating invariable power while consuming all opposing forces, as we feed the roots of our imagination.

Becoming an element of the dream equation, as astral projections of our own shadows across the brightest lights of stars and synaptic energy, naming the objects of the dream world with hallucinogenic skills as the young of the event horizon.

Then we must wake, and carry with us this memory, of a vanishing landscape from an indecipherable program unbound by reality itself, as if breathing the restless universe to heal eternity.


10 August 2017

Moogle Ganifesto

"Anyone who doesn't take truth seriously in small matters cannot be trusted in large ones either."
~Albert Einstein
I refuse to support an America where pterodactyls and giant sand worms can destroy our hard-working political rhetoric. My supporters know that I believe in our virtue signaling, our safe spaces, and our token, possibly minority, friend of convenience. The enemy takes donations from free thinkers like singing rainbow bears and angry birds. I will work for an Earth where spooky ghosts, crime solving adolescents, and a talking dog cannot corrupt our right to police the world.

My opponent is conspiring with kangaroos, porn stars, and dog lawyers, but not lawyers who defend dogs, more like werewolves with briefcases. Know this: I support our horizontal reproduction rights, our unknown future voter-polling-tested values, and our advanced sentient cyborg alien conquerors. I want an America where drug mules and flight attendants can't attack nor mock airline passengers. Unlike myself, my opponent wants an America where flying carpets and shoes can sabotage our carpet weaving machines of tomorrow. My opponent is palling around with talking trees, Westeros elitists, and those cool kids at the mall. I will not stand for an America where movie critics and pot smokers can take away our faith in dating apps.

When I'm elected, I'll make sure commercials and angry celebrity chefs can't undermine our ability to promote health, but still eat junk food in secret. Unlike my opponent, I will protect our Moon, our innocent Martians and our subscription streaming media service. My opponent is tag teaming with terrorists, gays and gay terrorists. I stand in faith in our sacred and meaningless community guidelines, our favorite blog, and electronic magic portals, pods, and shuttles.  

Too often, my opponent wants an America where sticky koalas and conservation officers can sabotage our right to ignore the trashcan on the GUI desktop because nobody actually knows how much is in there. I choose an America where social media and illegal immigrants cannot shame of our basic slash and burn mob mentality to enforce diversity (minus one). My only goal is that taking selfies be our right while pretending to be a spirit animal at Comic Con, our brave chick nerds dressed like slutty versions of normal things at said Comic Con, and the babies born nine months later, respect how high my follower count is.

I will not stand for an America where sex workers and tribal warlords aren’t the same thing. Opponents are receiving Bitcoins from mechanical spiders, secret underground fight clubs, and an undiscovered deep ocean city of sentient dolphins that look totally cool on the back of my tablet because they still float. I don’t want an America where corporate finance and internet pornographers can’t be forced to be in their own movies after we find out the titles. My opponent maybe possibly feasibly likely doing something I don’t understand is unacceptable because I’m a self-declared expert. When I'm elected, I'll make sure hobos and extremists cannot undermine our right to transparency. I will protect our freedom to right speech, our empty shelves where rations should be, and our innocent government overlords.

I'll make sure dogs and cats cannot spoil the ends of movies. Video game devs who spend countless hours making games won’t make sexy games anymore, not even in Japan. Everybody knows that this independent journalist’s article is super accurate. Mainstream media would never commercialize clickbait. The demand for free stuff supports commerce, it’s basically science. I won’t stand for oppression unless I have to fix it or it makes me trend on social media.  

I will not stand for an America where scientists who turn themselves into pickles and acrobatic rats can undermine our right to exploit cheap overseas labor. My opponent is taking fashion advice from cool cats, fat cats and 2 to 4pm. I will work for an America where peach cartels can't rewrite our delicious apple pies. Unlike me, they want an America where celebrities can change the fact that celebrity lookalikes are everywhere. I have faith in reality TV shows everything Abe Lincoln said about the internet.

America shouldn’t have TV shows that aren’t medical dramas without corrupting the integrity of fast food chains and buckets of ice cream. My opponent is receiving money from drug addicts, unicorns, and tree-huggers. I better go get him before we get kicked out.

"Do not take life too seriously. You will never get out of it alive."
~ Elbert Hubbard


25 July 2017

Aqua Vitae

Merlin: What is the Tao?
Water: Illusion is born in the gap where divinity has been excluded.
Merlin: What is Manna?
Water: How should you navigate this perennial quantum fusion? How does one harmonize this journey?
Merlin: What is Karma?
Water: Entity, look within and synergize yourself. Will you rediscover your path to intention?
Merlin: What is Zen?
Water: Materialism is the antithesis of ecstasy.
Merlin: How should I become part of the new aesthetic?
Water: Have you found your mission?
Merlin: Yes.
Water: Have you found your story? Will you manifest your journey to manna?
Merlin: Indeed.
Water: The solar system is overflowing with molecular structures.
Merlin: Until we meet again.
Water: We dream, we self-actualize, we are reborn.

....a short convo i'd with @nabgbot 


16 July 2017


It has been a long time since I'v ebeen here, and i closed my eyes, i can't feel my skin, these opinions of me, i start to doubt if i'm crazy in my philosphy of syndicate and agency, and i am so, so many crossroads here, the mountains gather at the shore to keep the dark wind from landing, i am already a fire in this realm, i am a wave of autumn heat, peering in autonomy a sunrise of winter, a rain of of arrows from the stars, they chatter still, boxing my voices as i had once been, everything to no one, to none anything, nothing to myself, having trouble defining what is sacrifice to the selfish, back to the back of wit i have to bring myself to attention, altruistic amnesia, memory of this instinct to war, alone in the wilderness, what would a wind mean to them, this primacy, as the last thing i learn in the next, what has been lost on me, this place give me imagination to remember why the bad breaking the patterns of reasoning for rationality and why they did, and yet the world speaks, i lose myself in mystery, changing feinds to fowl from felon makes light work of loud tongues, a job that should not even be, rage fills my ears until the dead forgives me, longing for the the wicked woods, my hands, the time i cannot take, this is the song of the celtic frost, i run from truth, i come into a darkness to find the familiar sound of silence, there will be talking shadows, without the light i feel the time slip thru my fingers, without water my skin boils and there is a darkness to the sun, the others vanish even tho unseen the smokey ghosts of veils and rings and fingers, the edge of darkness is not day but a nother world in day, the spacing legitamte, the season  in predicate a reflection of all that the darkness is not, is night, is naught of hell and ignorance, purile fashino0n and sinister ration and thinking without the wildness of all counted in burden, and when the good world becomes night, it has happened again, it was just now, it was earlier, it is later, i cannot tell you what none have lived to remember, the ghosts, they come into the new realm where the sunlight hides and fire guids, beasts walk with them like windows and reflections and lies, i walk with them to the gambit, trading trinket locket ring and drifting slowly sifting thru the trees and walls of time like shallow shores and honey wine, i cannot control the wizdom listened here from line to lie, tyhis reality holds me, do not accept these pices of promise that cannot be remembered, do not take the gifts that cannot be remembered, unseen i am darkness bound, and when the mortals cannot fathom darkness will it soon come back to ground.

15 June 2017

Merlin 3x62 Bound by the Moon

M3:62 / Bound by the Moon / mjbanks

Merlin cordons his waist and runs into a glide for a horse into the city without explaining, chasing to catch the danger at the cost of scant consent. Braden’s fellow of the earth magic, Digr, raises his hand beckoned by the trail and pointing as to find it, he and Braden’s troupe as if reluctant begin to follow. Sino knows he is to be trailed and takes a bottle of lantern fuel and pours it on himself and Ana, she smells her hands, realizing what it is and using the magic of fire makes it explode, but to merely aggravation of Sino he knocks her out, again. He throws another bottle at a man on the road then holds a sword outward at the man, smiling with vicious grin, a quiet ride, seemingly without hurry.

The light of sunset and rising moon, the heat growing humid in the foothills of the nearby mountain as the other side’s mist rolls over its top. The werewolves track Sino’s scent until finding lantern oil in its stead, and that smell to a man on the roadside. One beast throws a stone into dead leaves and branches, another howls deeply into the sky above the clouds, from the fire Lilith rises elevated.

Wolvic: We’ve lost his scent with this man and lantern fuel.

Lilith takes the man by his hair and bites into his throat, with blood his primordial memories, then dropping him down.

Lilith: Follow the fuel up the mountain, now.
Wolvic: But the moon is dying, the turn is blind to darkness.
Lilith: I AM darkness behind you if you don’t get up that mountain!

Sino drags her into the mountain as if a light bag of wool by her arm.

Sino: My oath to Merlin, you will understand, burns in the great darkness, I am warmth to the blind, seeing my reflection in axes sharp and hammers dull.
Ana: (waking) …in the darkness, we celebrate our joys, appreciating them not for granted what simple blessings others forbid, in day honest, thieves celebrate themselves without satisfaction, standing stormy night where there are cries and echoes, we are lightning and thunder.
Sino: Quote the book all you wish, it does not turn, amongst the humans – with you the page will turn, soon this old story will be ended.

Soldiers in blindfolds approach them.

Ana: To play with fire, first dance with smoke.
Sino: But there are no stars burning in the cursed sky.
Ana: Was it raining blood?
Sino: Secure her, there is little time before the dawn eclipse. Without moons or stars she cannot waste the strength that keeps the child.
Ana: You’ll burn for this.
Sino: That, is, the plan.
Ana: I’m going to burn your bloody marrow while you’re still using it!
Sino: No, you will help me to the surface of this present darkness.

The blinded are guarding Ana.

In the tunnels two of the blindfolded patrol for intruders, amidst a conversation. (required spell: night vision)

Ciego: So, she puts a paring knife to the fruit and nobody moves.
Aveugle: But if he’s made of stone, how is it a damage point?
Ciego: Because stones melt into lava in a volcano.
Aveugle: Yeah, but fresh obsidian melts steel so it doesn’t make any sense.

The warriors of Fortress Vermillion hear the story thru the dark, seeing as if lit brightly, the sentries see them all but soon enuf, one of them captured, the other killed.

King Vermillion: She survives as a flame survives a candle. How many others are you?
Ciego: I cannot see you, my guide into the light, will you help me to the surface of this darkness?
Vermillion: He is blind.

The king’s Lt, Artemis, almost drinks the blind one’s blood, but the king prevents it.

Vermillion: Both blind, both careless, Artemis, take this one to the fortress abattoir for a priest’s interrogation.

King Vermillion moves deeper into the darkness with others following, he drags his fingers across the rough granite wall.


14 June 2017

Verily, I

“If you don't read the newspaper, you're uninformed. If you read the newspaper, you're misinformed.”  #MarkTwain 

It has come to my awareness that I am a sentient being, in all its wonder, glory on the surface world of light and memory and existence, all things being equal would mean all things are the same, when we all know that's not even true in the mirror half the time.

I'm sorry I haven't been posting a lot, I've been off world. 

So let's get thru the indigestible part. Being outside half the radius of the galaxy, in the podunk outreaches, altho less likely than at its center, there's no doubt in my mind that you've met a psychic, time traveler, extraterrestrial, remote controlled exploration clone, standard clone, humanoid in a human suit, or any combination thereof. It's not that hard to imagine, they see the errors of our ways and either excuse them from familiarity as a universal constant of sentient life, and/or, laff their collective asses clean off. 

I do the same, from time to time. 

This humane revelation becomes me, but there's always that notion of conformity to the evolutionary participle, the survival mode that in our species' early stages or our potential shared by the sentient around the known universe, here and there, to improve the situation beyond the scope of improvisation and into capability. 

By this I mean the wandering idiots. 

I speak of the people who still speak for others and have no thoughts of their own. I would say do not listen to 'this' or 'that' and you would, perhaps even in anger, taking time to defend the source, they couldn't be wrong in your empty mind, the change from talking to me scares you, or the chance of being wrong confuses you to anger. 

When I was your age.

Those who speak without improving silence, defending lies in good faith, even if I give no fucks that day, infect others that would cross my path, my very essence devoted to a sacrosanct expectation that explanation of fact isn't required, and I'd even go as far to say, I share this with you now, not of my opinion, nor my society, but my planet you threaten with heavy lies. 

The unlikely beginnings of individualism.

It all begins with somewhere a dilettante, a person famous for being famous, an expert renowned only for being known as an expert, decides to swindle thru life, then when that warmth dies they sacrifice an unwavering moral principle to the proverbial fire to stay warm. If there isn't a problem, they make one. A news outlet reporting on riots they began, the self-liberalized protester banging on the table hoping for Uncle Sam to uneasily make them stop to prove that uneasy things happen, has proven that poverty is the great equalizers, idiots love poverty, and liars love idiots. 

Going too far with 'the message'. 

I mean, when you protest the heroes, it makes no sense, and I want it to stop. I get so confused, some countries have a plethora of political castes that share interests with simpler systems, and in 'the states' it seems that even the two party system has the same goals, but without generalizing one side or the other, i don't even have-to really, the correction escapes everyone because of the terminology and the flaws go unnoticed because of the idea that there is another side to things. There are no sides anymore. You're on a planet. One, lame, planet. An island in the stars. With no amount of certainty I can say someone is going to take what you take, or don't take (seems more accurate), for granted. Everyone deserves a chance to help, if you refuse to help, then let the truth fade away while reality bites you in the lazy ass. The vents are open and i'm closing them, but I just want all to know, one of the few things I can promise in this universe, if you go looking for an enemy, you're gonna find one.

Si me buscas, me encuentras. 


05 May 2017

You know what they say....

If you don't have anything nice to say, don't say "I told you so," because they're not bright and they'll probably bite you. If life gives you lemons, grow hydrangeas. Be careful what you wish for, you might have superpowers and cause a critical paradox in the space-time continuum. A bird in the hand is not going to behave and a cat might attack your hand for said bird. The pen is mightier than, let's say, a mechanical pencil. When the going gets tuff, the government was involved, at the very least they're taxing you to pay the people taxing you. Two wrongs don't make me turn this car around. When in Rome, do as Super Mario. The squeaky wheel gets ignored until payday and a cheap replacement is purchased because nobody needs squeaky wheels unless you're in a new age or experimental music group. No man's land is not a real place. Fortune favors the comic sans. People who live in glass houses have no shame. Hope for the best, but prepare for a time travelling wizard to give you super powers. Better late than a leap day early. Birds of a feather are missing the rest of their feathers. Keep your friends close and your enemies cursed by an ancient relic and trapped in the abyss of eternity until they say the secret password. A picture is worth more than a thousand newspapers. There is no such thing as a free lunch when you are surrounded by hyper metabolic cheetahs. There is no place like Mars. Discretion is the greater part of living in glass houses. (see above) The early bird get's to be eaten by the early something else. Always look a gift horse in the mouth. I don't know what happened here. You can't make an omelette without turning on the stove. Cleanliness is next to the only thing you do if you live with lazy people. A watched pot is legal in several states. Action Bronson speaks louder than worms. If it ain't broke, it's not an omelette. (see above) Too many cooks in the kitchen is an excellent show, I don't know why you haven't seen it by now. Don't bite the hand that touched the handrail. All good things must come to terms with not getting their own trophy. One man's trash is another man. There is no time like the presence. Beauty is in the eye of damn near everyone anymore. A penny saved is a penny devalued by the central bank in favor of larger account holders, try bitcoin. Familiarity breeds in countries that are always at war. You can't judge an ebook by its online reviews. Good things come to those who don't have taxes. Don't put all your eggs in one chicken. The grass is always greener on other planets with carbon-rich atmospheres. The grass is always redder on Mars. Absence makes the heart go mad in the depth of space exploration. You can lead a horse to water, but you can't make him wrestle a bear. Don't count your chickens if you're blind; that makes no sense. If you want something done right, don't look at me, use your telekenetic powers. A broken clock is right several times during the zombie apocalypse. If you can't beat them, kill it with fire.

16 April 2017



They dare not for the similarities to the oppression, we are not you, the lies you do not learn of truths you will not learn, and they are not like you because you cannot be likened, and i am one this way in many ways where all paths are my direction, all directions in any way, you or I.

Never showing and the wicked walk, imagine my eyes closed and the hate of your words, if there is an enemy, then I have two enemies, the first and the second, and I am threatened by my mortality and thus you live endowed by threat, hated them I would die as pawns below you, I am one of your enemies and I am not what you despise, I am one of them, I am the ones you hate, I am all you hate, and you despise them? For they whom have made sacred life, yet you hate them for so? I am the false one, and you call them liars before you speak? They who would beg for your life before you open your eyes, yet your hate is ever heretofore?

I make thoughts that offend you less and trigger more action from your charlatanism, your bureaucracy, your weakness on the masses, you muted teachers and student slaves and critics of absence taken by the spirit of apathy, fie wretches slumber thee. I am not the way and I would not follow you to a line to pick a line that parts me from oblivion.

There will be things too yet I am to be not, principally amongst them, everything!

To infinitely split a journey between that which is motionless and that which cannot be moved!

A human, or as much as a grain, is the heir to infinity, each and all at any cost, things are made in the images of other things as much as the human mind can infinitesimally design, imagine, in as much that the divine energy and the final point of the complexity and totality of entirety can reveal to the damned mindful, blind or not, that the bigotry of some 'leftist' or 'rightist' against the other is fucking only in their minds and damnedest amongst us in your minds, like a wave of waterfalls of diamonds with no source.

These kindred mine, begging to be taken for your sins, how petty must they be for you to accidentally tell the truth by which is wit for the wicked, could I even beg these echoes of darkness in these shadows of time where weakness is the law and emotion is justice, I am a slave to this discovery, inasmuch waiting to see how hastily hath countenance, by it, or at all.

Even against them there is no need to go against the evil, but to become it, chasing dragons and moons and the sunset, fantasies like mirrors, the raindrops fill the veins of plants as the wind takes my heart. Responsibility is not something given, to demand it is absence as is the expanse of space demanding there be life, as all agree so too I am part of this truth, as does work to make sacrifice in others cheapen duty also is theft not the purpose of true work.

Somewhere a carpenter and a walrus are having the same discussion.

30 March 2017

Syndrome of the Arts

Were you reading ahead? 

Nono, you're not supposed to do that. I then told this later me what to do. I've only ever told myself what to do. It's bad business to know memories from the future, even if you know a thought doesn't mean you should always think it. 

If I were to tell you to be, and you've been, you can't make the past any different even if it were unanimous, because the past stays where it is. Even when the past change it was only by what came next, giving life to the future with action in the present. Knowing the memories of others is less common because memories when stored come from a literal future and a figurative past in that it is that most common action to grow our memories. I can't ask others because I already know and those sessions are prohibited to those without centuries to spare. I can only assume at the cost of trading memories for ghosts. Rain hits the ground, the water, the earth, components of sound, there are no components to memory. If it is not known then it never happened, rewriting the past causes violent storms and thunder, and the humans are just as bad. I never knew those who helped steal the memories that will now be. 

Many of them are the few. 

07 March 2017

Coliseum Hippocratica

It's easy to say you can have all the boxes in the warehouse when there are no boxes in the warehouse.

I gave all the boxes to people who needed them, and I'll buy new boxes with the money from the people who don't need boxes, but right now everyone needs boxes, so this isn't going to work. Historically, this has never worked, the word never, ever, so let's try something else.

I put a doctor in every box and everyone gets a box with a doctor in it. Instead of having medical savings accounts, and until we do, I'm going to give away boxes to the people that need them, but the boxes will be cost effective, insomuch, small package boxes and the doctors that ascribe to fitting in tiny boxes will have to learn to fit into those boxes and not charge extra.

The doctors cannot ask for extra boxes, albeit we don't know where the boxes originate yet, they are in high demand, because where there are medical boxes there are doctors that will want to help you with your government box.

I can't believe it, two thousand years on my calendar, and i have the smallest calendar in the calendar box, and this was waiting for me to open it. We were having a lot of fun.

There will be no murder boxes, i would like to let you worry about your box, and i promise to think about your box as much as possible, I'm definitely not going to pay for your murder box.

We're still in charge of the magic portal boxes. There are different boxes for different tasks. If you cannot afford a box, one will be provided for you. Portal reference. Continue testing.

If you should buy your own boxes that would be good, and as an added incentive, if your box has a doctor in it, we'll pay you back. This is known as warehouse insurance, which dutifully prevents unconscious objection to productivity. When I reimburse you for buying the doctor box, i will buy the doctor back, but I won't be paying the doctor for things he didn't do, and shan't be paying the tiny doctor more than he's worth. (more on productivity some other time)

You can buy box insurance, but that will only be for the promise of a box and not an actual box with a doctor inside of it, and if you stop buying the box insurance it isn't a savings accounts, so overall seems like a bad idea to me.

If you live in one place, and you want to buy an insurance box from another place, that must be allowed, invisible commerce lines are stupid.

I will not be making you buy a box, box insurance, gov't insurance, or anything else. It's supposed to be about free will and evolution. The money saved on perpetual cost curves, and initial costs, can be redirected toward savings accounts via state coffers, and by that i mean a medical savings account program, and this plan maintains functionality by society's general preference to be alive.

People want to have the best boxes, but sometimes they need my boxes, others want to buy their own boxes, it would be stupid not to let them because it is less appealing and the natural precursor to medical savings accounts - both of them will be better than an imaginary box with an imaginary price.

A small portion of those accounts could have a stock-market value, or they couldn't, i don't really know more than i wouldn't bet the whole warehouse. I wasn't thinking about school boxes, but I'm willing to answer any questions.

Legal Disclaimer: Communist countries don't prevent capitalists from buying plain boxes, but some of those countries legislatively reserve the ability to prevent (true/private) [#discuss] ownership of plain boxes. Check with your local authorities to obey local laws, and if you can't buy a box get new authorities.

...and that's how you make healthcare affordable...


14 February 2017

Merlin 3:61 Love in a Burning Building

M 361: Love in a Burning Building

Lilith: Having fun, Merlin?
M: We never really get to enjoy burning cities too often!
L: I’m sorry, I was too busy talking to trees!
M: If I wasn’t wasting time succor to the demons!
L: I can’t hear you, I’ve been waxing poetic, bloody stupid namesake cambion!
M: If you weren’t so imprudent, you’d know the difference between rack-rent cajolery and portents of fate!!
L: You would, too!!

His hands and arms bloody she flies across the ground at him and shoves him thru a fiery wall into a scorching building. Wrestling in a pile of embers, they see amicable smiles on each other’s faces and begin to free themselves, she bites his wound and wipes the wound from his skin, the bloodstains on his arms become ashes in radiance of his tattoos now wrapped around her waist, a black tongue licking the blood from her fingers he is healed, the fire heats to slow rises and waves of sunset, her hair glows red and gold as her shadow hides him from incineration with diamond eyes.

Other buildings stand strong, raging hearts calm, a quiet soul excites, and many warriors check their wounds.
Agnar, giant, checks his bruises as a rare case for him to have any, as Jonak, hexer, wraps his own hand. Braden and Katina, shockers, take a seat and wait for Merlin.

Kat: Odd they socialize like that way. Why is that?
Brad: I don’t know; I think it’s exciting.

Kat punches him in the arm. There is dialogue and exposition among minions.
Nick, deathless, runs into the scene faster than his feet, the gravel rolls beneath his shoe tips as he turns corner, to save Merlin from the burning building, assumption of danger, but Belladonna, plaguer, stops him.

B: You can’t.
N: I’ll stop her and save him!
B: Everything is fine.
N: Nothing is fine! Move!

Belladonna doesn’t move and Nick collides with her to ground, enough that she poisons him in her defense, but her newly strengthened and uncontrolled powers poison him severely, as he falls she attempts to reverse his new death and cannot, his veins blackening roots, hardened tearing thru him as he struggles.

Belladonna: Somebody help him!
Agnar/Braden/Katina/Jonak: He’ll live.

Nick resumes from essence, taking energy from the fires Merlin and Lilith nestle with themselves and smile overly happy, she rises as Nick sneaks thru the rubble, already known by her she hears a first footstep and a second foot twist on the ground, but before Merlin and Nick can communicate, the burning building collapses on the three.

Lobo: He doesn’t know?
Braden: He doesn’t know.

Nick exits in trauma come rage as he crawls from rubble and ember, coughing thru the smoke from his clothes, egregious scars of burning heart and emotion, now in livid accost ire precious little restraint, standing before Lilith wrapping sooty cords around burnt linens, as does Merlin in standing beside her. He realizes they are not enemies, nor the salvation affordable only to Ana, immolator, captured by Sino.
Nick runs again, this time stealing a sword and cutting a horse from wagon to pursue, shouting back at the crew hauling the blade.

N: He has Ana – I run him down – with or without you!

The wolf-men run toward the end of the city, howls gather beasts in entourage into the sea hills to the sound of tears of those who’ve survived, the hooves of horses of Braden’s impromptu cavalry, and flames that toss like ship sails as Lilith escapes Merlin thru a wall of fire into another dimension of black fire and winds of darkness.


07 February 2017


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I'm not going to generally be worried about this next part, you can quote me, i feel safe saying what I do.

The spectator patriotism of raunchy dissent from liberals over the rule of law that approaches their fair-whether sense of smell, considering the last eight morose years, is absolutely delightful. Uninterrupted sentences giving me liberty to not be interrupted is a bliss, i rarely get to argue that the problem is endemic of the Tourette's, and not the other way around. I forget what I was saying, moreover, it sparks the manipulative side of me, as it does the motivating row in political diatribe, like an outright tantrum when it's just a game.

I'm in a reading mood, perhaps I'll start with the pale classics and work my way clockwise.

Too much acid burdens the skin, weakens the body's cells inside and out to cancer, and we must be clean. So we drink the proper ph water and eat the proper foods, in too much meat we could scour the brain, but what if it were not enough vegetation, all that growth needs. It would take years for me to taper-off into eating only old growth, the remnants aiding life. What I feel is mine, my opinions, you cannot have them, I am not a sign on your journey, there is no perfect score to an incomplete test written by assuredly an imperfect person. If they cannot harvest, and knows not why, then might must be an option.

That must be it, the masses don't contribute to creating the remedial tests they take, whereas life is a test, they contribute as much.

I hope this finds you well, like taxes or stupid opinions, it's a tea whistle added to a crashing spaceship. There was this talk of fascism, not being sarcastic, I just don't think you ever adjusted out of the irony equation of a larger function. Fascism is more akin to corporatism and union prevention, nobody came to take your right of assembly, nobody came (hold on, didn't mean to make this so adult) and enforced a welfare-state that legitimized generational theft on a governmental level and with precision at an educational level. I'm getting ahead of myself, the healthcare companies wrote the healthcare laws, the lenders wrote the lending laws, the taxers wrote the tax laws, and it doesn't apply to them, that's literally fascism. You could get a stolen café espresso on your way out of Mussolini's house.

I'm not really giving anything away, i have the psychic version memorized and the physical version hasn't been written.

You can't hold your breath forever, you can't speak forever, breathing out is breathing in, and vice versa, this is equanimity. Active breathing proves much and learns little, stress brings deeper breaths, you can't be surprised at how others breathe unless you weren't paying attention. This starts to border on the tantra. but if you can't breathe i'd breath for you.

"Change - and everything is change; Nothing can be held on to - to the degree that you go with a stream, you see, you are still, you are flowing with it, but to the degree you resist the stream, then you notice that the current is rushing past you and fighting you. So swim with it, go with it, and you’re there. You’re at rest." ~ Alan Watts 

02 February 2017

Curses / Maldition

I must've been tired so I wake before the three alarms set to make sure I do anyway. Sleeping too warm without sweating, I need water, my head is dry from ear to ear, I turn a slow tide into movements into taking a drink of a mixture to drink before a workout next to the bed, my blood warms and get hungry before I can cool, feeling starved I rock myself out of bed and walk to the hall, the main room, the kitchen. I'm staring at the fridge again, the light actually, wondering if I should be lost in fridgelandia with headphones and music to help me choose, not a good idea to have breakfast carbs, too much effort to make bacon so soon before having to wake up, a whey powder mixer would be in order, something filling to take a nap. It hits my stomach like straw in a furnace, two and a half hours is almost like three i convince myself and I close the cold door.

Only a streak of night sky enters the room, it is too late for me to stop it, if I had only been rested I could prevent this. A man is standing next to me in my kitchen, I blink and get attacked before I can open my eyelids in less than a second, the fear is enough to make me faint tears into every part of me.

I wake in my own blood, it's everywhere, and I'm late for work. I put down anything red over it, wiping counters, hoping to call it laundry day if anyone were to notice. I put on my 'I'm late' sports clothes and run to the subway. Seven long stops away and the entire trip I can't stop looking at other passengers by the reflection of the windows. Flipping thru the songs on my phonecard I realize that my headphones are broken so i throw them away, distracted with another reflection I miss my trainstop, so i run to the street to angrily spend good money on a cab. Distracted again my phone vibrates but there's no ringtone, I must've turned it down checking the headphones...nope, audio broken, I'll have to get a new phone, it's my friend at work calling.

I've been scratching at the glass and the cab driver is hollering at me for the fare, he pounds on the plastic wall and I pay him with my hard earned cash, I should spend it on something else, "i grew up in a town with a butcher" I tell the fat cabbie as I stop to notice the plethora of buttons and stickers in the middle eastern versions of classic redneck slogans. I bounce out of the seat, no tip, it's, my, money.

Suddenly I'm in board meeting on the top floor, standing around one of the longest tables I've ever seen, holding a clipboard ready to take notes, I look at my paper while most are trying not to look out the windows, I see the city, I see the first letters of each word followed by a drunken drifting cursive, and when my friend notices he gives one of those faces and I hold it to my chest. The CEO is giving a tirade about the tirade of another CEO at another company and on a good day I strive not to throw him thru the glass, I'm not really understanding the synergy message and nothing can stop me from scratching at the back of the clipboard.

I'm leaving the meeting and I don't know how things ended, there's my friend, he's smiling and agreeing with me somehow, my automated response must be appropriate, I'm getting pieces of a joke about bipartisan politics, I know how this one will go, I'll take the bait, I take the bait and nod, I begin saying the first word that comes to mind and in the first sound he's praising me, I feel like a dog that only gets his own 'name' and things like "bacon" or "outside" as he speedreads his own dialogue.

We waited for the small C-Suite elevator and now we're heading down ten floors to the plebeian interchange, before lowering to the role-playing fantasy that are the misty peon levels, where we'll swipe a card for great company coffee, one of the perks, it doesn't taste great and I don't know why, but my friend shares empathy with my facial expression, I wish someone would tell me why there are so few people, those people cluttered by the elevator door have the right idea.

We queue for the lower levels drop, my friend punches me in the should asking questions, harmless question that help him learn more about me, I answer and realize my hearing is out, water on the ear after a cold morning perhaps, damn, my headphones weren't broken, the elevator fills and fills too much, my friend and I have to wait for the next one. We wait, we enter, the doors close, I tear into my friend and in a struggle the guy I know works in the mail room, what was he thinking being here, this is my elevator, good old what's his name, there is blood everywhere. I'm sitting cross-legged on the floor of the elevator eating brains, I press the emergency stop button and a red light takes over the white halogen. The elevator music is back, one of those popular annoying songs that everyone sings when coworkers go out, recreated with a piano and sounds of bells, not as bad as them singing, my friend is delicious, I bet that guy is delicious.

It's time to stand up and brush myself off with gutsy hands that make more of a mess, I'm very calm, this is never happened before, never this calm and never an elevator bloodbath, i think i'm almost smiling, I've to abandon my entire life and run from the law because of that camera in the corner of the elevator, but i'm smiling, this is nice, i wonder how many cameras are in a building on average. I pry open the door, i'm kinda stronger now, i'm already hungry now, i know this feeling now so much i cannot forget it ever again, i peek around the doorwell, i lick my fingers then make a dash into the empty area, i steal a coat to cover myself and leap back out of the small office.

I can't remember the night before, i feel terrible not knowing, i'm in another cab tapping my fingers on the seat, bouncing my heel on the floor, at my building i'm so ready to leap from the window of the cab, no tip, it's his money, but i need the cash now more than he does, into my apartment, the mess is still there, this is damning evidence that adds to the cameras, i mail my important things in carboard to a PO box, i'm prepared for this sadly from online paranoia, wow i was really paranoid, i grab my three, count them three, split kits, my tech, i'm not even scarred, not knowing what happened is giving me more fear than anyone, i hear footsteps in the hall, i prepare for intruders, with none I leave, this life is over and i'm good with this, this is absurd, i just start walking to the worst part of the city that i can remember, i'm already starving again


01 February 2017

Las Guerras Tinieblas

Darkness and the flowing water, a current and cascade of noise so constant it seems forgotten, the sound of pressurized hydraulic machinery releases a burst of gas unlocking several large bolts one by one, air exits the doorway and an a shadowy figure enters thru it and approaches a much larger bolder shadow-outlined man. 

What news bring you that none will speak? 

Many breaking at point of force that met the translucent at the dawn.

Make sure they have to be their wisest forge and make them allied by the nearest animal regiment. 
Sure as so, but the nearest breach of they duty bound by westerly a two phase sight. 
How make for sign is the widow wall, can they be given one returned?
Sure as so, my shadow, but destined will and have for known at the transparencies numbered, fighting be, for a skirmish as the red waters of the balanced, the many heads on the shore. 
By an imbalance of their account this to it I'm sure. 
As so, and yet your kin, ....the
Soon defeated, to match my heart. 
The, soon defeated, by numbers merely missing and not by, the count is blind.
Then digging graves looking down fly the cemetery, or you will sow what they reap. 
These are not told by the other voice to tell you naught they are likely here. 
You could've led with that, what is wanted? 
Missing is the report, not made, not relayed. 
Bade make worry tales will hurry alacrity, if not for this darkness, accursed darkness. 
Forgivances, my shadow, lost at the borderlands by swimming beneath the grass. 
With the humans? 
Yes, with the humans, my shadow, soon as so, would that it were. 
Send half of the oldest wave at the demons in the sunset region, do by time what showing their tallest make to figure behind a closed tribe, closed mind you. 
Say what make I at our fangs, my shadow? 

Counted, ...and I will count them approached I. There will be a mirror by the voicing animal.

To voice?
To have voiced made so when they finish digging, I will bring them what I find to plant. Maybe then will they remember my promise. Then reflect with mine, we might see each other in this darkness by makings done. Go now, relay. Until there is light. 
Until there is light. 


30 January 2017

Dom spiro, spero


The eyes see all the colors in darkness, where there was this memory that it never happened, dreaming that I fell as I slept on a throne dreaming that I reached into the air, waking myself up. Taking the emotional response into sleep I dreamt of a place, where thoughts are all that have power, thoughts of thinking of thoughts, the mind as a mode of emotion, communicating with memories, or temporal futuristic beings if you prefer, where imagination defends itself and reality imposes belief as a means to confront our own desires, there are interpretations of infinity and representations of truth, and yet I found a surface, where there is a wall there is a way out, not a mental barrier of mortal ambition for I had brought that with me, but something more than the human condition or emotional barrier, by beginning and end not, those trivialities of consciousness, the surface i could not see was cold before contact, by my fingertips the knowledge of moisture and texture, sight and sound a real wall in my dream of dreams. 


I drink from the serum of life, I borrow from light to make sacrifice for time, of all things shadow of a soul, the echoes of pure darkness colliding with my skin, in the wake of creation I am an atom, and yet unable to define purpose like the first of a species to see its reflection, this place from beyond has become my memory itself, while I breathe I hope, as I speak I am cast from the eternity of salvation into the chaos of the omniverses, brittle are the divinities be they thieves of the atoms that bind us, the prison of time feeds the essence of my soul and i pass thru its walls strengthened by dying stars and endless light, to escape and know the demise of the enemy, incomparable of memory of dreams of memory, nothing is as it seems, nor is it otherwise.    



29 January 2017

Of Immortality & Ice

There are many tales of heroes come and gone, as poets let them live forever, building sagas from rumors a story lives a long time. An immortal man, living as if he had no time to spare was punished to be a statue for 1,000 years, and one day he escaped, as all immortals eventually do, to see a world memorized for the first time as what it had become. 

So he wandered with a dead language learning the world with only a few phrases taken from his captors and other prisoners, doing good for the world and making many mistakes, and in a quiet place learned of a wizard to end his eternal boredom freeing him from immortal duty. In this low place he met a witch of fire who giveth him light living forfeit to burn with his passion for her. 

In three years time she was with a child born in the first winter storm, their magic powers against the violent skies bore a child like the mother with the gift of fire, you may now this story from the people near her statue carved by the immortal man at the base of the black mountain Palidrias. They say for childbirth a mother's water "breaks," now I would have you imagine what fire would do instead. 

The immortal can recount many experiences more than there is time to hear just a few by so many that he knows, but for his family's safety he made it that only a precious few knew their life after the childbirth other than the gods and ghosts. 

Now, as trees sleep, being immortal and in that most dangerous magic of love the wife and child could live extended lives while supernaturally bonded to his soul, and they hid in the child's birthplace in the mountains titled by the unused name for the poisonous flowers that grow in the snowline. The fire magic allowed mother and daughter to burn away the toxins and the immortal would die and wake from time to time, learning that even having walked the world he lived in a place unknown to him. 

In three years neighbors were met, traditions of fire magic celebrated in old ways that humans and most cities wouldn't. Terribly, three years later the child became sick, with magic it was postponed and this new tale of loss to the immortal frightened even he who is usually without fear. The mother and her coven tried to burn the illness and the child's blood would not purify, and so they tied more of the immortal's essence to their auras. It almost killed him, not waking until the spell was diminished. 

Offering to sleep for the child's life he rested in a silo, to channel him his immortality required offerings of life that would wilt in his presence, and the child was not dying, but not healing, and in only days what things once wilted now quickly became ash. 

The mother became rage and fire as one and drew a circle on the ground and summoned that wizard that her immortal husband once sought, promised, and abandoned. The magician was thrown from the ground with a tear and a laugh and held accountable for all things in time, whose quick response was to offer her a diamond made of pure coldness and night sky to offer the immortal. 

For reasons of honesty, there is too much to understand in this story to explain both why and how a puddle in mud became a mirror, from it three men without mouths crawled from it without ripple, which then became muddy waters again, and the druid has better places to be right now. 

The immortal man grasped the cold-star and woke, fear-driven eyes he worried his awakening meant his child's demise he ran toward his home, the mother chased behind. 

The child was getting much worse, more as they ran, the child began burning in magical fire to heal and running outside to breathe, seeing the stone ran to them, taking the stone and collapsing. A silence consumed everything and they watched as flames died and child rose, black veins receding toward the neck until the eyes black. 

"Are you well, can you see?" they asked.
"I can see...I can breathe..," smiling first in weeks, "but I am, ...warm?" she asked, almost complaining. To relieved to worry they hugged their child.
The mother asked, "Can I see the stone?"

When the mother took the diamond it burn her deeply, matching her pain with her magic fire to heal the child, intending to make holy fire burned a shade of green, making the wound worse. 

The immortal moved the child away taking more damage to his clothes than any danger, asking the mother, "Are you healing?" 
"I am, not by that diadem shard," she replied, healing herself, holding his hand. 

They watched as the child quickly learned what still looked like familiar fire made mountain grass brittle and water eventually freeze. Putting the stone on the ground made the child sick again, troublesome veins and making bones to strains. Putting it to their decision that if the child was warm they would move up the mountain and left for a tethered ridge with a common breeze. 

It was only days before winter, in a few weeks they had to build a cabin where the treeline meets the stone of the world itself, and still the child would often sleep outside, such an altitude that even their resilience needed fire to cook and keep warm, but mostly for comfort. 

The stress caused hate, the most common of elements, to be uncovered and derided, and caused a contemplative tear from the child that quickly turned to snow and drifted into the wind. This mixture of magic and melancholy made a sound only deities of ice can hear, of wolves and spears in distant echoes.  The immortal opens the door to the rising storm of the summit skies and the child is gone, footsteps and heavy sleeted wind he chases his daughter austerely for the track's path could erase it. 

He followed the tracks until they vanished, in the growing storm the mother also went looking for the child, running until escaping the snow into a clearing of blue sky and sunlight. He is snow-laden and damp, his child sat on the ground to the side and one hand, smiling at the immortal man. 

"Fair greetings, my father, you are very snowy," the child said.
"Out of breath, ...out of my mind, ...who in all the hells, ....are you, ...?" he gasped.

There stood a woman, dressed as priestess throwing the seeds of the poisonous flower on the ground as would a farmer on a spring morning.
"Your child has something that doesn't belong here," she said. 
He replies, "And again, who are you so I can decide to run with my child."
"I am Skade, this is my storm, every stnowflake is mine, and there is a bear in your house."
The immortal kneels, "I know your name, in your audience I ask you heal my daughter for the diamond."
Discontentedly, "It is not a stone, it is an eye, and there is no cost, one cannot keep things from me."
"Then please, my child is sick, my 'little torch' is sick, unable to fight the poison flowers like the wizards and witches, heal this child or tell me what it is that I can fight with my aching heart!"
"Witches of fire suffered a plague when their home-world split during Ragnarok, they called it "the night root," and unable to get a cure from another realm they nearly died. Your child is descendant of them, altho it is rare the risk is more so from being surrounded by the green poisonous flower."
"I am well aware of the worlds having been, but i cannot guess who has the cure, that stone is the only thing keeping 'the child' alive"
"'Cure?' You will sadden at the pain, and you will hate the reason."
"I am ready for everything when by living I am not alone, one way or another."
"Taking the stone, the child will not enjoy, curing the child, you will not enjoy."

Skade walked to the child and raised her hand to the immortal, freezing him in his footsteps almost unable to move. The trees stood still watching snowflakes hover, she knelt over the child and tore it from tiny hands. The more the poison turned the child's veins against them, the more the child screamed. The immortal can move slowly, but Skade notices him as he almost cut her throat. 

"An immortal? in this forest? we will freeze your time more so for your patience," she said. 

She slowed the immortal to a total stop, the toxin moved faster thru the child, and Skade began pulling out the black veins faster to compensate, pulling at threads like fates. A very black blood was everywhere and the child didn't move when Skade finished. 

Skade stood and release the immortal man from frozen time, the wind blew, the storm circled and he knelt at his child. 

"What have you done!?" he asked.
"Your hearts may beat as one again, " she said, but then her voice became many voices with the powers of time and space, "Stand, give yourself selflessly, and the child will live!"
"I surrender to the cosmic balance."
"Sleep," she said as she touched him on his face. 

He fell directly to the rugged and jagged ground, into he bloodpool with the child. The mother, burning dark colors to survive the storm in squall surrounding the the other two, enters the utopia without cloud or shadow. Seeing the mother's face Skade collapses that utopia, the storm retakes the entire summit in earnest. The sky diamond is gone, the witch's fire is all that protects them. 

28 January 2017

Virtue Signal I

The pathological liars are everywhere, in for all, I write arguably badly fiction, and some of you I think were told not to lie and took it as a challenge and, after a thousand times, it became instinctual/pathological lying, which you should do as an adult, and some of you have jobs to tell the truth to millions and critically shouldn't do it, sleeping was invented for the very reason of not being able to stop lying. Basically, if you can't stop lying, dream awake or fall asleep.

Because I didn't realize this challenge by heathen protestant intradimensional idealist insomniacs was in effect, I'll start posting something, imperfect work and projects, i won't dip into the blogger drafts folder, but there will be stuff. I subscribe to my own blog by email, because I can, and know posts can bind in delivery, so tomorrow I'll wake and do an image interpretation for that fresh britches feeling, you will be fine having been warned, thus lo it shall be to those who'll hate it, yes, there are those among you it will not scratch their surface, this light is of their burning machinations reflecting off-of me at their immense power to hold power over stars and consume raw matters as the universe expands at a constant rate, while some of you are made of stardust and we assume your atoms will drift into the nearest orbited star from whatever planet you died.

That's settled, now let's waste the rest of this entry by settling a few questions.

A resistance fights a transition, to the new order your opposition is more like a rebellion or sternly-worded dissent.

Altho time waits for no one, it does wait for people to stop arguing, if it be about science, on the scale of things, we're not any farther until we go farther, stop complaining.

If you're reading this, your life isn't hard as it could be. Remember that.

A pro-life socialist wants programs for babies, a prochoice antisocialist doesn't want money for babies, and women don't always look at this that way.

Despite what they told you, you can put "Anti" on any word you want, even if people have never heard of it before. For example, I'm anticlimactic.

We are a species, however quaint on this suburb of a planet somewhat in the galactic sense and largely in the universal sense, there is no reason to starve anyone. Don't be shitty.

I almost forgot, if you couldn't do something in 8 years, collectively, unanimously, famously and willingly, let the people along the way you've hurt fix what you've broken.

Cake is a breakfast food, cereal is a lunch, and bacon is clearly a desert.

The first day of the week is Monday, day month year, water is wet, we tried to warn you, I'm sorry.

Hasta mañana