"Foul Tarnished, In search of the Elden Ring. Emboldened by the flame of ambition. Someone must extinguish thy flame. " - MARGIT, THE FELL OMEN
How's your mind in in clicks and clips?
Sort of daydreaming and then focus or suddenly it consumes just everything - remembering how it felt at the time, but serving a purpose, being on break filling my phone with bookmarks on health. Like yourself, I can't see the future anymore, there's a democracy conveniently giving two prepared choices for ever preventable problem, the escape from delay vs the respect due, the stoic without excuse vs the answers. Here are health tips to help you fight zombies. (this is a long post, you might want radio)
*There've been shooters and I'm trying to prove I'm not one of them with this news, they cry for victim disarmament, or defense restrictions, instead of condemning the culture (because that's their entire voting base) or they plainly don't know. This is for both.*
Caesarist: 2022 June 2
https://askanydifference.com/difference-between-bcaa-and-eaa/
Running thru the apocalypse, or 2020, you might grab a jug of aminos, dump some water in it, chug it, and rise and grind. Imagine that BCAA is lighter and functional, where EAA is heavier and resourceful.
https://www.goodhousekeeping.com/life/relationships/a31405192/cute-romantic-date-ideas/
The world has turned and you want to feel appreciated, but you can't keep doing the same stuff in different places, or different stuff and expecting a new result, make certain you haven't tried everything before you quit and look into new exciting goals on this issue. I would like to profess the money I've saved and list my plans for possible global order for errors.
https://www.bonappetit.com/recipe/simple-carbonara
You have to cook for girls, variations on one dish, learn the pieces first to last to first, if that's something you like we'll encourage that, you'll have to learn three for different times of a day, which might be a plan by the time you're moving out. I'm about ready to learn carbonara, a fall and winter dish possibly alpine that fills appropriately with proper accoutrements.
https://www.healthline.com/nutrition/protein-shake-without-protein-powder
Ice cream is fun, but there's only so much sugar and milkshakes you can want or need, look at the diet info on the box and you'll see the protein ingredients, get some ice and blend, sometimes whey makes it creamy, everything else helps you digest it, the body's kidneys are more likely to need water to process the waste before going on strike, look at your hands, if fingerprints aren't the only lines on your hands, it's time for a drink. There are essential aminos and proteins that must come from food, everything else is creative trial and error. There's powder tea, roots, berries, seeds, you might try maca root one day, and coffee grounds the next. Food is filling, or satisfying, such is life.
https://www.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/pmc/articles/PMC3184420/
Maca root was originally given to livestock to improve fertility, a centuries old plant proven safe with proteins and vitamins.
https://www.betterup.com/blog/how-to-inspire-others
If you aren't two people and friends see you happy, they'll be inspired, living the best life on instagram, or flossing on fools, presenting the positivity at all times is the magnetic soldier and approachable leader, promises are excuse weeds, the best of us will become the better, and the worst will learn to have as much emotion to match.
IDK why, smiling shows if you're human or animal, but it's crazy, if being inspiring isn't just in the cards, showing your fangs with a smile makes some people thinks you're crazy, and not smiling shows when you're not. Also, whitening toothpaste without mint is important.
https://hackspirit.com/how-to-make-your-crush-love-you-back/
I'm so confused, no commitments to burden, but responsibility and pride in work, ready to give sensual orders and serious discipline. If you realize your worth and aren't threatened by success, you can practice abstinence (nofap) so that even if you are, your actions will be your own, naturally.
https://www.inc.com/jeff-haden/6-ways-to-remember-more-and-forget-less-spoiler-alert-coffee.html
Drinking coffee improves your memory, but caffeine won't tell you that you've drank too much of it, eidetic practices are more about a mood/desire to remember the emotional climate of small details, caffeine stimulus rewards provide serotonin or dopamine and we address that memory accordingly. Coffee good, I miss coffee.
https://chopra.com/articles/the-6-vedic-illusions-of-life-and-how-to-move-beyond-them
Veil of Maya, illusion is like a hope demon come to block the truth, where hope is something to believe, illusion is selfless without control and negative with controlling desire. The truth will set you free, but illusion can pretend to save you. Daydreaming is synaptic organization, losing grip on reality and grabbing an illusion is a nightmare, just like any tragedy or debacle in the news. The false, the choice given or taken, and the truth. Static vs dynamic logic. For causality illusion is a profile of the political. Agency vs program vs individual at the same time, a hypothetical illusion ignored at peril. Touch grass, student. Stand with the stars.
https://www.quora.com/What-is-the-best-English-translation-of-Rumis-Masnavi
Dwelling on the issue - the (Quora) answers seem to overvalue the context of significance, perhaps in my disrespect, prithee let them just read, and when the protagonist is lost in the reeds so will they wander in the ancient texts of wise and learned path transcribed, for the stoic sons we create need to keep their word, not tempt ill temper of old scholars and young philosophers. For the record, one of the major translators missed the mark, inventing the ends of sentences that fit the beginnings his mind couldn't grasp. I was translating things to Vulcan during the pandemic, when I asked about 13th century poetry, I was immediately told "Rumi slaps yo" and trudat. Rumi Quotes
https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Soju
If you quit drinking, one shot will ruin you, instead of 5k a year just to avoid delirium tremens. Most people have a favorite drink eventually, doesn't mean booze buffets are a good idea. It always makes me resentful, not something worth admitting it's like writing, adding a confidence to see things thru a filter by remembering things how I want, which doesn't matter it's too far fetched. Alcohol brings a confidence, which is one emotion in hundreds and it plays hell with hormones, but if you're in a weird country, it's sterilized for consumption. The ancients though it was magic, it's not. There's no drunk cure, sleep it off.
https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Counting_coup
Mean people count coup, promising conflict and systemic collapse against a veiled threat, in politics it's sometimes called the bully pulpit, the brutality of emotion it's a cardholder bluff and a chipholder buyout, reaching peak fuckery in the 1800s with tribal initiative and territorial aggressions becoming one. If you can't surrender to understanding, remember all the denial and abuse that comes with confusion. Or it's iron for iron. Do you even lift, lil bro?
https://www.yourtango.com/2019321680/crush-quotes-about-having-crush-someone
Before the pheromones wore off I googled this, it was a long trip tbh, I was ticcing all said and done, nice getting to see the countryside and the sunrise, sometimes I guess perspective isn't impartial without time to think, suddenly it's everything and there's no going back.
https://www.tigerfitness.com/blogs/supplements/11-proven-ashwagandha-benefits-for-men
Highlight, copy, paste: Ashwagandha - is an ayurvedic medicine, natural remedy, tested safe for many centuries it's intended use is for: insulin sensitivity (diabetes, glycemia), lowering cortisol, anti-cancer oxygenation, antidepressant, anti stress anti anxiety (lower cortisol), boosting testosterone (probably by lowering cortisol), muscle growth and antinflammatory (aticortisol), cognative and cholesterol improvements, and hormonal balance (testosterone in theory). Not a lot of studies, newish to the western world, I found it in a no-stim pre-workout, and again at an Amazon reseller. Due to antinflammatory, I'll take it a couple of hours after the workout to let the inflammation promote repair growth, still a lot of BMI to lower and cholesterol to burn.
https://www.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/pmc/articles/PMC3880087/
Cortisol kills testosterone, I think it's a stress produced response, they say relax and you'll live longer, too much stress unable to repair your back, or your heart, that's all she wrote. Cortisol would tell you to stop pushing the point of no return so far from the tribe. I was reading Peterson's book on the train, because I want to be better than myself, it talks early on about the weight of defeat is heavy and becomes an illusory stress, perhaps cortisol, as surrealists or realists like to say the emotion is a chemical response, this is from conflict, defeat by imaginary rejection or very real is an exercise without conflict or injury, so then cortisol from training intentionally needs time for rest and discovering opportunities intentionally needs time to recover. Testosterone isn't usually the problem, it's cardiovascular and dietary. Even reduced, wins for men, rewards for women, for him, for her, obviously improve nonetheless, even health improvements, like rest, even meditation offer cortisol retrograde to alleviation. What century is this? Stress a bitch.
https://theislandnow.com/blog-112/best-delta-8-thc-brand-reviews/
I smoked myself sober some time ago said the author of a wizard. They can extract the lesser chemical component like blood from a stone, but gas is still record high? C'mon, man. Pot gives you moobs - and schizophrenia if you have no life experiences. Seems null to get hemp after libertarian legalization of potent strains. I might buy dad edibles for his birthday. Only the female plant flowers, food for thought.
https://www.theseasonedmom.com/honey-garlic-dijon-pork-tenderloin-marinade/
I thought the honey and mustard would pull against the garlic (allium), it was kindofa raw sour taste cooked down, but not baked in, maybe needed something else done, a better cut or rolled.
https://www.webmd.com/balance/what-is-sensory-overload-with-anxiety
If stress (or any emotion) goes unresolved, in severe exhaustion can overload your senses, I thought I was ahead of it, but it hasn't been like that since the formative years, possibly the deja vu or less superstitious I'm probably forgetting something and my subliminal is miffed.
https://www.zerohedge.com/personal-finance/epidemic-nobody-talks-about-burnout
The rat race paradox, working to finance an addiction. So there are rats that will undergo pain as long as the reward is bigger than previous, it's this complex shame that we have done this experiment to ourselves or have the audacity to impose it without any sense of shame, the most villainous chastise hope, echoes of laughter at freedom to live, the stereotypical burnout was responsible until vacations, or the weekend, but the anticipation for chaos and Overton values of panic are a regression to an animalistic fear of thunder and lightning when we are at too little the rulers of ourselves and too often the arbiter over others. When targeted ads subliminally direct zombies to herding points triggering zonal ads and socially adhesive credit confused for integrity it draws the picture why infinite madness is so hard to copy for entertainers playing a game politicians have played for ages, perhaps if so few create so much it's so many that will control so few, as heart learns truth. Better to burn out than fade away. Twin Flames
https://proverbicals.com/finnish-proverbs/
Who promises a lot, gives a little.
https://www.jodibrandoneditorial.com/blog/word-count-how-many-words-should-your-book-be
"A 100-page book would be, then, about 25,000 words; a 150-page book would be roughly 37,500 words."
The next posts to the end of 2022 wil be chapter ideas for you, and first drafts for 100 page stories, anything over making a cliffhanger. Never know where life takes you.
https://en.wiktionary.org/wiki/purity_spiral
Someone on the forums brought this up - some say competition creates hate, let's say that it can get out of control if you let it, removing action from consequence the hero complex of a neutered society will self own, will catch its own tail barking at shadows for a higher status and fleas. Sitting in silence juggling fire, nerves of steel are not made from insecurity and deceits. Build a wall around your family, not between them. Don't tilt at windmills.
Tilting at too many windmills, oneself goes insane. Assuming that too many what-ifs for dudes, (or too many choices for chicks?), forces a sensory overload and shutdown and you stop looking. Article proceeds to list "the Romanticiser, the Maximiser, and the Hesitator," and I felt a hesitator when when I read it, based on the ability to avoid the risk and still exaggerate my importance. It was interesting and random AF.
https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Small_talk
I fell asleep in the book on small talk twice, it's okay if not full of discrepancies and recursive, a selfless deeper understanding is required, not to gain or obsess there's a give and take that really requires uncouth libido and genuine conversation without learning thru distraction and staring into the paintings and staying. You have to have something in common with the other person.
https://christopherdorris.com/dont-get-your-hopes-up/
Remembering how I felt crashed into some realities, self authoring brought this very cynical search result, just have hope like anger or love, emotional fuel for the mood on the move. Hope is somewhere between dreams and goals, like too many fires for storms, or too many raindrops to dance. One of the famous philosophers saying something like 'when you stop dreaming you wake up' -- you can google it, I don't want the targeted ads. /afk
https://thenationalpulse.com/2022/05/18/ncreased-testosterone-levels-turns-voters-more-conservative/
Conservative is almost synonymous with traditional activist, there's this vanishing let's say culture losing to distraction or even delayed adulthood, myself included, that complacency almost sedentary loses the testosterone accused of protectionism, at hint of scarcity a recent war escalated, weird oppressions on innocent people are implicated when the cause is cultural laziness, the weak progressive doesn't want to do the work, the strong conservative doesn't know how, it's all complicated, a democrat makes two votes, one singular permission of debate, and then holds authority overseeing (to oversee?) the vote, if they're a politician they'll flip a two-headed coin and call it a tie. There's a great deal of tripartite conflict, parties vs programs vs people that became normalized when the crazies made their way into the majority and the state went looking for trouble. We went from issue voters to bipartisan shills. --> Look at the loss of testosterone in the forming packs of partisan hacks, ecelebs and simps, opportunists wasting 'testosterone' or destroying it.
This Caesarist series goes into testosterone based on my own age and research.
https://www.wellandgood.com/i-want-to-fall-in-love/
If you have to ask you'll never know, to stand on loose ground between the many spiraling skies and hold someone, ready to take them to safety not knowing faith without fate, someone to miss as perfection guides choice, purpose becomes habit, always praying their heart is alive.
The gates of hell with the wrong key, I admit my sins and reach out, to no one, the screams beg of pleasure the voices speak of pain nothing makes sense as a single interrupting thought refuses to leave never since forever, to take and please, and returned possessed until the tryst is time and tide.
https://www.goscribbler.com/blog/how-much-money-can-you-make-by-self-publishing-a-book
"Self-published authors can make between 40 to 60 percent royalties on a single book sale. This is far more than traditionally published authors who make only 10-12 percent royalties. Additionally, although self-published authors are able to publish two to three high-quality books each year, it takes traditionally published authors two to three years to publish one book."
https://hhma.org/blog/weight-loss-men/
Bodyfat can trigger testosterone suppression, this is hibernation mode, no libido, joint pain, posture problems, and breathing congestion signifying impeded recovery from otherwise healthy activities.
CMS? whatever; according to this, obesity encourages globulin to attack sex hormones, antibodies are delivered thru immunoglobulin, thus extensive lethargy is antithetical to vitality. Depression without optimism and performance creates a mental block to natural behavior and traditional proclivity. Talking yourself out of fitness is a sign of this lethargy.
https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Bread_and_circuses
While democracy allows corruption to flood the general consensus, a manufactured problem and choices often working harder instead of smarter, with immediate results instead of solutions of a sustainable longevity, bread and circuses describes society's ability to be entertained before curious, our ability to accept the silver.
https://www.prospectmedical.com/resources/wellness-center/macronutrients-fats-carbs-protein
"In general, most adults should target their diets to comprise of 45-65% Carbohydrates, 10-35% Protein and 20-35% Fat. (If you’re trying to lose weight, the number should be adjusted to 10-30% Carbohydrates, 40-50% Protein and 30-40% Fat.)"
I'm working on 60g fat per day, and 50% protein, eggs and rice and whey, still hungry add fruits and vegetables, they barely make a caloric surplus unless you eat by the bucket. Nuts are fatty, meat digestion slows energy. Get a calorie app.
https://www.t-nation.com/diet-fat-loss/how-bodybuilders-should-eat/
Low carb might tax thinking/logic, while relying on protein to feel full, it limits active training and strains recovery. Low fat slows adipose fat creation by limiting calories, but limits rapid access cholesterols relating to glands, depending on cholesterols stored in bodyfat, this diet feeding more so on carbs will promote muscle in natural limits where excess carbs will be empty calories converted to bodyfat, requiring many much smaller meals. Cholesterol is required to make estrogen, testosterone, etc.
https://www.healthline.com/health/how-alcohol-affects-testosterone
Alcohol can lower testosterone in 30 minutes. The ancient Romans would negotiate treaties after a night of drinking wine (possibly with psychedelics in it). I assume the manic sedative relates to calm/confidence, the same as estrogen suppression would make girls feel like one of the wolves...? I'm not the expert. Scientists against superstition can note, ancients turned nature into gods after drinking magic potion, in metaphors we can see the echoes in words like "punchdrunk" and "lovedrunk".
I eat after waking up, follow the macro balance designed, before workout lower fat higher carb macro protein too close to workout will slow my digestion via metabolism. More than water, less than whey during the workout, an isolate or aminos. Post workout food should restore bloodsugar if your muscles are sore, and should restore protein if not sore, plus watch your total day macro, lean protein is rare. What to eat and when to eat is important, eating the same thing at the same hour for two-three days should be long enough to know.
https://www.medicinenet.com/what_to_eat_before_working_out_to_lose_belly_fat/article.htm
What to eat before a workout is the same as before a day, a trip, a chore, just eat for the job, not for the winter. Easily digestible carbs fuel energy, low carbs will make lean muscle, but the body goes into shock and stores fat before ever burning fat faster. Lower fat, then lower carbs, then lower protein if your into the powerbuilding. Not an expert.
https://www.werner.com/blog/how-much-do-professional-truck-drivers-make/
"The average pay for dedicated drivers can range from $0.58 to $0.78 per mile providing an income average range of $1,140 up to $1,538 per week or more ($60,000 – $80,000 per year). Jul 19, 2021"
https://www.stillstoked.com/feed-me/injury-best-food-diet-vitamins-ligament-repair/
Ligaments attach muscle to bone, they can't be hydrated instantly, requiring precaution and nutrition. Based on the collagen and vitamin c in the article, eggs and oranges.
https://average2alpha.com/produce-more-testosterone/
4 tips to produce more testosterone before bed: stop eating before bed, write shit down, turn of your phone/screens, have sex (nofap) or exercise.
Toxoplasmosis has infected half the planet, a parasite that tends to make creatures like others with it, even rats and cats. Caveat emptor. + There are reports of it causing psychosis, but that's fair, after the lockdown you let gov't get away with saying anything and doing nothing while charging double and spending triple.
[Adding this series, not replacing my bad poetry. One a month?]