Vortex

Know why, able to eliminate grasp of delusion, the senses overload, the bias of ego, dull ritual and balancing soul, grasping to starlight in a dream, my mind to yours, thought and logic to find myself -- I thirst, I hunger, I headache, my stomach in my eyes, my nerves in my bones, become a shadow in the blinding memory.

Starving the Habit - mjbanks

"A student, filled with emotion and crying, implored, 'why is there so much suffering?,' Suzuki Roshi replied, 'no reason.'" 

Starving the Habit - mjbanks

The logical action is preparation. At this point the better mentality is just beyond reach. So let's take a shot in the dark. 

"This is what YOU can achieve after 'X' number of days;" 

You're not going to do something you don't want, anything that you don't visualize, won't materialize, and this can be obsessive, but honest compulsions to improve or reduce or whatever aren't a source of imagination in past or future. Have goals and dreams will follow.

After "5 minutes" your "heart rate returns to normal." 

At this point, your psychological health improves in the present, 'i am' or 'i can' are good ways to start sentences. This presumably is a moment of clarity, a new moment is a new perspective, flying thru time can be a difficult choice when otherwise uncontrollable, tempus fugit. 

After "2-3 days" your "guilt and shame seems to decrease." 

Your segmentation from your promise to yourself is ending, statements like 'i am' are best, but 'i can' helps, even 'i will' is weak but better than nothing. In momentum, making healthy choices creates no guilt and escapes any actual responsible scrutiny, essentially bad habits are masked by illogical coping mechanisms, these temporary solutions provide accomplishment easily mistaken for the second step of rebooting, assumptions must be replaced with a self-described purpose.

After "7 days" your "brain fog lifts." 

Let's call this 10 days, as most overhauls of the human mind are in the acerbic wave following insomnia, perseverating, and emotion in its animal state. Clarity can see only the goals you've designed for yourself, and in action, training yourself in this new discipline reveals the difficulty, the mind will default to its protocols, which you define while conscious and in any new adventure can be as luminary as a dream, good or bad or hella rando, and many might revert illogically or relapse physically. The ability to see what is available is attached to what you know. The ability to see something and not instinctively react emotionally is a sign of intelligence, but is very rare if you're still 'uncivilized' or dangerous. 

After "14 days" your "prolactin starts to drop."

Here's the part that makes or breaks the verbal human. Imagine you're thirsty, the choice is get something to drink. The intellectual hurdle, problem-solving, where new 'tricks' are forming and the desire to over-train or become motivated by pure emotion, too many priorities instills the need to evolve, without knowing that the subconscious is making conclusions that you will only realize later. Here we find both weak and deep pains of regret if any. This is your brain flexing its ability, as the brain needs order, it seeks order. To this point, like muscles becoming stronger, the human mind is channeling prototypical divinity, the body leading the mind leading the body creating confusion of necessity/luxury, the strong-willed are usually seeking answers all the same. 

After "14 - 21 days" while your brain is evolving you find that, "due to drop in prolactin, dopamine sensitivity increases, you can start to enjoy the little things in life again, no longer emotionally numb, energy levels start to increase big time, confidence also increases." 

Up to this point, regret was painful or ignored, and your bad habits had become roots. Fear of failure and pain of possibility is initiating logical responses at the darkest level of the imagination, and its a good time to remind yourself 'this is the challenge now, and I challenge it', this stage has multiplicity and exponential results, as your dopamine sensitivity increases, you'll see new multiple colors, this 'aftershock' of individualism or enlightenment thru a vocation/discipline can come not only three weeks later, but three months, three years, etc. later. This is the brain's way of telling yourself that something is a reward, you found water, your memory of survival is an education, and up to this point your bad habits have polluted your free will, those roots have blocked passage. Some would say that for something to become habit you have to do it 1000x and you'll be addicted to it, but really you have to throw out the old to make room for the new, and wait a couple/few weeks. 

After "30 days" your "cravings and flashbacks noticeably reduce."

Endurance and dedication are connected here logically, if not you may have to focus some, but largely the feeling of loss has gone, the most important thing to do now is let go of concept and structure, to follow logic, to stick to the plan like stars in the sky. That confusion of needs and wants in the past has camouflaged any difference between biological and metalogical life, but with clarity and goals, the ability for satiety is option again. Life, or your plan, will have meaning again, food will fill, sunsets will warm. 

After "30-60 days" "symptoms disappear or improve," the body begins to adapt and react naturally, and "Confidence keeps rising." 

The famous point of no return, the life-changing choices are half-to-half at every option, the decision between right and wrong is the only decision, even almost a sub-process or second opinion, to avoid any nervous decisions here, forget individuality and start thinking about others, what they want, debatably self-less, 'we come to serve' is a decent phrase, for being part of a goal, and part of a whole. Surface facts are thick and patience is required.

After "42 days" your "ΔFosB (DeltaFosB) that has accumulated around the nucleus accumbens starts to remove itself. This makes it possible for the neurons in the" (habit or substance) "addicted pathways to now start to slowly" dissolving "over time without use."

The neurons are the adaptive circuitry in the brain, when delta-fos-b clings to a neuron it tells your memory engrams to 'take the detour route,' which plays all hell with your characteristics and eventually personality. I've said many times, if there wasn't something wrong with the human condition, I'd be worried it's not the human condition. Synaptic pathways are still available for old ways, while new pathways are evolving, as you find rewards you build new instincts for success, patience and clarity and meditation are critical in this this stage, while the old habits fade from use. Like memories, the how-to's your brain has made will fade if unused. This stage, for the uninitiated, even the memory of a memory have cause a deep and painful regret, but is only a memory easily removed with right activity.

After "90 days" by some it's "considered a full reboot for most people, however people with severe" atrophy, repetitive stress, or damage "will need longer. Confidence still rising." 

Welcome to the beginning of a new you, since the time-frame isn't exact, the reboot could be complete and you're in the second stage of however many stages you want with a clean operating system, altho the choices remain, the benefits of good habit macrophages the bad. Up to now, you've had to remove temptations, only to need memory and instinct, then you relied on order and chaos theory, and now you can begin to trust yourself, you can think logically.

After "120 - 150 days" your "symptoms of severe" trauma(?) "disappear or improve."

You can define your character in the waking state, multitasking different solutions and goals, testing your logic before your patience, and things will be better than good. It will feel good to have and finish manageable goals, the ability to train your limits just to learn how to refrain from illogical behavior, abstain from violence and maintain your spirit animal, or shadow, or desires. Rewarding yourself will be easier, altho might yet have a sting of regret, 'how did i reward the wrong things for so long', 'what a dumb addiction' you might say, 'it is time to begin.' 

Choices can be good or bad only after they are made. 

"Oh, you know -- nothing I'm not used to, but it's amazing what you can get used to, huh?" ~ Dalton, Road House 

/mjbanks

Are you out of your Vulcan mind?

While I'm soon to ask r/Vulcan mods (where I almost posted the first half of this) for clearance to pin a post once a year on codifying words not listed in  VLD, here's this boring rant. For metadata and google alert purposes - VUHLKANSU. I'll post to it something like an update with all the project links and around the web stuff active -- if you see something here that's all links, it'll be just one and i'll post something written arbitrarily in-trade. So...?

Watching ST-ENT for the first time... I heard the translator Hoshi (the linda park), say "Pon Fo Maran" to T'Pol (the jolene blalock), eventho everyone is saying tepaul / tehpahl so far, and yet it wasn't given subtitles, I rewatched the shot, the encoded subtitles didn't translate it in my VLC-player either. T', t-apostrophe, is a tap, there's no vowel after it. 

It's in VLD as "Ponfo Miran," and labeled an expletive. It's accurate to say that emotional statements are invective in Vulcan culture. Memory-Alpha has the same translation, among many with off translations and bad spellings that I'm going to pick TF apart later-ons. Also, IDK why the article states that Vulcan "was" a language spoken. Not for cannon or head-cannon either. Lastly, that writer/producer Mike Sussman, NASHAUT , DU, he'd provided the translation from his production notes. - that it means "go to hell."

I know few speak Vulcan. I know this is TLDR and my response to "ponfo miran": yes and no. 

You may close the tab now. It's really open to interpretation - 'no duh, that's why we were reading till now' - none of that, ...this is how the latest articles are written, for the umbrage reader. Let's continue. HNY BTW. 

Pon, time. Fo, shell. Maran, one instance of a drift. Ponfo miran, but miran isn't a word otherwise, it becomes an profanity, later a curse, then a turn of phrase, then a preposition we use as a filler. Vulcan profanity is just like any other, there are words for anything, altho there are a few times it doesn't require an English construct to idealize the same sentence. 

Hoshi was interrupted as T'Pol responds in English. There isn't any Vulcan spoken for the rest of the pilot episode, "Broken Bow," Push Kes-Wun, where Hoshi hears something, the Vulcan says she didn't, everyone hears it, and Hoshi says 'ponfo miran'.... 

Each word has an implicit state so, pon fo maran means, time is shell is drift, time-shell-drift, ....there are some similarities with ser/estar purpose besides the point. Maran comes from Marau, to drift, and he could've easily conjugated the word or emailed somebody, and wrote phonetic notes for the actors, and the actress, could've had her plate full that day. 

As it was a debate, Hoshi could've been saying anything before the Vulcan interrupted. 

"Pon fo maran" ha? the time shell drift yes? -- I took it as a rhetorical comment at first, as if to say, 'did your memory of events drift eventho we all heard the noise?', and we'll never know. Since everything is implied, she might've said, 'did my recollection drift or do you hear it now?' - these are ways to say how most language seems to drift into go to hell, these days, the umbrage era of online. The only ones that seem to handle no tone of voice in text are the robots IRL, fascinating, captain. BUT....it could be what she was about to say, calling her a time-shell-drift (you vulcan), as in vapid, vulcans mythology has them in endless war for resources and their educational structure a priority. It's also my understanding that they evolved from iguanas and cats, in the evolutionary tree of life, so there's something different. Or it could have been "Pon Fo Maran" na'bogozh. Time-shell-drift to hell, aka GTH. 

We'll never know. I know I don't want to post this, but I owe you as little/much after the fact that this shouldn't be a blog that just stops. You're reading about the coolness of something everybody knew from TV that you missed because you were outside perambulating, tyvm spellcheck. Wouldn't that crunch your mind if you found a blog about the steps someone was documenting toward an international conspiracy to cover up an interplanetary mystery and/or magic cabal and/or and it stops right before....

mjbanks / Sonok